yes.

from eat pray love, elizabeth gilbert

"groceries," richard says, "listen to me. someday you're gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. you'll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it--in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded by grace. take this time, every minute of it. let things work themselves out..."
"but i really loved him."
"big deal. so you fell in love with someone. don't you see what happened? this guy touched a place in your heart deeper than you thought you were capable of reaching, i mean you got zapped, kiddo. but that love you felt, that's just the beginning. you just got a taste of love. that's just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that...
"people think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. but a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. a true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake...soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. and thank god for it. your problem is, you just can't let this one go. it's over, groceries. david's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life...that was his job and he did great but now it's over. problem is, you can't accept that this relationship had a real short shelf life. you're like a dog at the dump, baby--you're just lickin' at an empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. and if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. so drop it."
"but i love him."
"so love him."
"but i miss him."
"so miss him...you're just afraid to let go of the last bits of david because then you'll really be alone, and you are scared to death of what will happen if you are really alone. but here's what you gotta understand, groceries. if you clear out all that space in your mind that you're using right now...you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot--a doorway. and guess what the universe will do with that doorway? it will rush in...and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. stop using david to block the door. let it go."
"but i wish me and david could--"
he cuts me off. "see, now that's you're problem. you're wishin' too much, baby. you gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone outta be."
this line gives me the first laugh of the day.
then i ask richard, "so how long will it be before all this grieving passes?"
"you want an exact date?"
"yes."
"something' you can circle on your calendar?"
"yes."
"lemme tell you something, groceries--you got some serious control issues."

evidently richard is from texas. eden nailed the twang. it was a masterful reading.


currently listening to: cold war kids while eden makes me a cake