jenn.

i don't really know what to say. i had an amazing night of good food. wine. making chocolate chip cookies. lifetimes of catching up.

i got to tell all the important stories to her tonight on this first of many hang outs. and our stories came in squares and spirals and tangents and we went where they led us and then back again.

i even got to share the story i really needed to tell but didn't even really want to admit i carried with me. it came in whispers and cringes and hurried sentences and long, pregnant pauses as i gathered my courage about me and tried to be vulnerable without disappearing into the floor. no hiding from her though. no secrets. she sees me too well already.

i told her about jaimini, too, since today seemed to be about reawakening some of that story. i also told her about my last radiohead tour. so much grief in both that i still haven't even scratched the surface of. i want to let it go.



currently listening to: ...until we felt red - kaki king