nightmares

every anxiety dream possible paid me a late-night visit last night. the only thing that didn't show up was a relationship nightmare {oh wait, that was the night before} or a spider nightmare {thank god!}.

it started with the sky scraper. we were at the top and someone had to jump into a helicopter. they were afraid. of course they would be, we're at the top of a tall building {think columbia tower}. i wordlessly volunteered to create a bridge with my body from the floating platform next to the building and the hovering craft {and said floating platform shifted and bobbled really uncomfortably}. the person scrambled over my body into the helicopter and i was left spanning the space with all that height below me thinking oh shit oh shit oh shit don't look down how! do i get back up?!?!


then there was the dream about the policeman. a speeding car. flashing lights. someone else driving but we're caught. fear.

then there was the never-ending dream about the final night of proof. except this final show broke down so far that the audience had to get up out of their chairs and crowd the stage because the lighting was malfunctioning and they couldn't see us otherwise. but wait, then something went wrong back stage and we all had to evacuate to the stage then bring all of our props to the front of house and it ended with a discussion of extending the run so the crowd could see a real final show or just canceling the show altogether.

then there was the work dream. orders i needed to place. pressure.

the traveling dream where i was milling aimlessly about the world, lost & purposeless.

the money dream. needing to go provide a side dish for a party and a really fancy dish was suggested by a wealthy friend {think truffles and caviar} and i didn't have the money.

then there was the person that tried to steal my wallet. there was a fumble. he missed and started running. a chase ensues. he shook me off but i later found him, cornered him and took him to security where he promptly started lying to cover himself and make me look bad.

the night continued. i am sure there were more in there.