touchstones

it was a strange week this week. a little off kilter. a little wonky and emotional and down right dirty at times. loneliness creeping in at unexpected moments for the first time in this cycle of singlehood {like in the middle of the night when i half awoke to shift in bed and somehow, for a split second, thought i was asleep next to someone, only to finish waking up to the sense of disappointment that no one was there and no one has been there for months}.

in contrast to how lovely and free flowing and jubilant the previous two weeks had been, it hasn't been fun to navigate. yet, somehow despite everything, i've still managed to collect a horde of lovely moments and things to draw close about me when life outside is a little rough and tumble.

and so, for today, i just want to acknowledge the touchstones of this week--the textures and victories that pulled me through the bumps:

--the fact that i only had one day off between runs for the first time since my injury
--the bouquet of vivid, pink ranunculus that's been sitting on my dining room table
--the spring suns biting into my winter skin
--the t-shirt clad run {the first of the season} i completed on monday
--the 7.5+ mile run i completed on thursday {the longest since my injury}
--dinner with old friends {one of whom is currently going through chemo}
--installing my birds
--seeing the birds slowly spiral in space
--jane eyre with eden
--buying a plane ticket for a dear friend to come visit and make a group of us brunch later in may
--being called elegant, witty and impressive all in the same email
--anticipating having my family over for easter brunch
--feeling the seattle international film festival draw near
--finally beginning to discover what it means to be connected to one's voice and in the same lesson going higher in my range than i ever thought possible.
--being able to vent and be held by a good friend.
--closing in on the plays i'll help produce later this year {we're down to 3}.
--being surprised by a new book at my doorstep sent as a gift from a dear aunt.

looking at it this way, i have to concede the fact that i had a wonderful week!