i may have found my new place

humility

going through my possessions as I prepare for this next move. I have
slowly pared down my collection of college, high school and even pre-
high school art and am never sure if I will regret it at a later date.
this is the last of it and I am on the fence. thoughts?

notes from the shadows

the first day over 75 degrees in 9 months and i don't know what to do with the heat. finding myself taking refuge in the shadows.

house hunting

time suck. headaches. sore eyes. craigslist. notes made. numbers written. phone calls made. messages left and not returned. driving around in rain. apartment viewings. at worst, creepy buildings where something bad must have happened. at best, lovely spaces that are too small and not quite good enough anyway. asking price is too high. what can i afford. craigslist. craigstlist. craigslist. searching whether i want to or not. searching when i should be working or sleeping. trying to be open minded. looking in all of seattle but gravitating towards capitol hill, walking distance to everywhere because if you live here you can't afford your car or your parking spot. craigslist again till my eyes burn. hope.

hope for something so great that it leaps out at me. hope that i can afford it. hope that it even exists and is big enough. hope i make it through this and that we, my new space and i, have a happy reunion and lovely life together for as long as it lasts.

wish me luck.

and wish me sanity.

the longest day of the year

and it's just closing here on camera at 9 something at night.
i can't believe the year is almost halfway done....

a few words

the first word:
epoch.
it came to me in the middle of an early saturday morning.
i couldn't sleep.
restless with the knowledge that things were about to change, and not sure exactly where to rest myself in the meantime.
excited.
thinking.
and unfortunately not sleeping until 3:30 or 4:00 in the morning.

at some point in my restless tossing and turning and iphone sudoku playing, i checked my email and found the word epoch staring back at me. and while i'm quite familiar with definitions two and three, it is one that stood out as new and relevant to me.

epoch \EP-uhk\, noun:

1. the beginning of a distinctive period in the history of anything.
2. a particular period of time marked by distinctive features or events.
3. a memorable date.

here i am, a few weeks later, trying to keep my flagging spirits up as i begin the search for a new apartment. i have high standards and too low of an income to find what i want easily. what i'm looking for seems about double my current budget.

but i digress into self pity.

the second word:
ruth.
which also happens to be my middle name, defined here with another surprising amount of relevance.

ruth \ROOTH\, noun:

1. compassion or pity for another.
2. sorrow or misery about one's own misdeeds or flaws.
3. in the bible, a moabite woman who married boaz and became an ancestor of david: the daughter-in-law of naomi.
4. book of the bible bearing her name.
5. a female given name.

a placeholder

for all the things i've been meaning to write about:

thom yorke.
thom yorke.
thom yorke.
siff (and edward norton)
my apartment search.
imogen heap, who is the most charming person i've ever seen and i got to watch her perform for 2 1/2 hours this past monday. yipee.
my crazy notenoughbreathingroom life.
the new vet art seattle retreat in early august.
making art. hopefully.

and that's it. thanks for your patience. in the meantime, i'll leave you with a little clip from monday's show. she spent 10 minutes getting a key signature and melody from the crowd then improvising a song for us on the spot. the song will be available for purchase in the next few days and all the money will go directly to a non-profit that the seattle fans selected.

she's turning into another hero of mine. :)



mom, you can see it here.


currently listening to: imogen heap these days. it took me a while to get into her music having only known the popular hide and seek and her frou frou work like let go (think garden state), but after seeing her live i get it completely now.

finally!

A sunny day and finally on my way to see 'the hedgehog'. The walk was
a speedy mile and a half (didn't want the tickets to sell out and I
got ticket numbers 9 and 8 left...a little close) of city streets,
sunshine and radiohead beats.

The movie was brilliant but could have easily been 30 minutes longer
to help fill in the gaps between the audience that hasn't read the
book and the story. I enjoyed it a lot though. Started crying a little
too soon because I knew what was coming.

after the dentist

walking out in the sun
still a little anxious from the experience
of having my crown popped
in and out as i waited and waited and waited
for my tooth to just fall apart in my mouth.

but i was in good hands
and i'm done with dental work for now thank goodness.

taking mark for a spin

you've already met my friend, mark {the new 5D mark ii i just purchased}, and now you can meet my friend jim. he's one of the vets who worked on the 4 month vet/art collaboration project. don't let the fact that he chose the army fool you. he's a wicked writer. puts me to .......s.....h.......a......m.......e.

poor jim. he agreed to come and putz around on my camera perhaps forgetting the obvious: i'm a portrait photographer by trade so my camera tends to swivel toward the nearest person of its own volition.

{this is when we decided he'd make a good tugboat captian.}

{for some reason, this last one is one of my favorites of the day. can't quite place why.}

{see jim, proof of sissy posture ;}

{if you noticed the smiles in the last two frames
they were in direct response to my rhetorical question
"do you ever feel like you're followed by paparazzi?"}