night time prayers

dear heavenly father*,

i'm scared
disappointed
and having resltess nightmare every night.

yet i still feelhopepray
that things are moving forward
and despite adding on a few pounds these past two months**
i still move through my days with a solid sense of wellbeing.

so please don't lolligag too much on manifesting the evidence of my
progress.

pretty please?

amen.

*a relic phrase from growing up religious
**the reason for which is a topic of an overdue post. and no, i am not
pregnant.